Welcome me to the 20 y.o club! And officially 20 years of being quirkyalone.
20 Years. or 7.305 Days.
Thank you universe for not making me stop counting my ages. :”) For these past 20 years I’ve been filled with much love from family and friends, which makes me beyond grateful and happy.
Last year, I was so scared realising I was growing older and regretful that I didn’t do much to prepare myself for the future. Well, I might say many things haven’t been checked yet now, but I am so proud I keep trying to be bold and honest (at least to myself).
One of those many things which haven’t been checked is having a romantic partner……
20 years of being quirkyalone! Isn’t it pathetic? (NO)
Tbh, I have zero experience in this-relationship-thing. I don’t have a feeling for the same gender, NO! (or not yet HAHAHAHAHA) (don’t be scared of me jk).
I am used to thinking that having a boyfriend makes me overwhelmed(?) and basically I am very much used to do many things by myself. Shopping, eating, driving, even watching films at the cinema. It sounds SO lonely but it is otherwise. I enjoy being quirkyalone. Or I feel lonely, but still can handle it.
The definition of quirkyalone
Last semester, I really had an unexpectedly crazy schedule.
I thought I didn’t have time for such a thing. And based on my friends’ experience, dating costs a lot HAHAHA. Therefore, I put aside this option.
However, recently I feel….. I need someone to talk to and have fun with besides my friends and family. I am just curious(?) what kind of feeling I would have if I had a special person next to me.
So, I start my research. HA.
Why am I single?
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I took a random quiz on Buzzfeed, and it said:
Hm, I do not completely disagree with this.
For 20 years of being quirkyalone, some (I might say many) people say that I am hardly reachable.
“You are too bright,“ they said. That I get a quite excellent grade, perform well in my class, or seem independent in basically anything is not my fault.
Sorry for playing too hard, but I don’t apologise for wanting the best.
It sounds harsh, but… maybe you are not my level. HAHAHAA #arrogantmodeon
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WAIT! MY RESEARCH WENT ON.
I don’t think that ‘too attractive’ is the main reason. I definitely agree with this result too:
I AM BORING. YES!
Some people may consider this one suits better than the first reason.
I try to not be boring. By knowing trends, accustoming to talk to strangers, watching videos “how to friend” and being outgoing. But somehow those don’t work.
I do behave better than before, but sometimes it still feels awkward. Well, maybe the quote “Not everyone understands you. Don’t explain anything” matches this situation. wkwk
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My close friends say I just haven’t met that “the one”.
I also nod for this reason. I had fallen to someone who I think don’t look at me. And I find some people giving me attention but I don’t get attracted to. So sorry.
So yeah.
The conclusion is:
I am single, available, and ready to mingle (with the right person 🙂 )
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Sejauh ini, paling sukaaa tulisanmu yang iniiiiiiiii. Gilak, keliatan bgt kamu berhasil cinta sama dirimu sendiri(yg belum banyak cewe bisa lakuin itu, termasuk aku-.-). Kenapa bahasa inggris sih?untung ngerti *nangis dipojokan*
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aku kan ngajak kamu belajar 🙂 kurang baik apa aku ini 😛